Broken Down to Build Back Up


 Obviously, life hasn't always been easy for me, but I have no ounce out self-pity at all. I've had my fair share of losses, heartache, and setbacks, yet I have managed to make it this far. It's only by the grace of God that I haven't given up and lost all hope that God is with me. He is working even when you can't see it, I can promise you that! He has and still is using my pain for His purpose. The very things that were meant to destroy me and break me down actually came to restore and build me back up stronger than ever! " But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him"            [ Hebrews 11:6 NKJV ]. Let your faith be what draws you near to God on your journey of becoming. You are stronger than you think and that is one of the sure things I have found through all of my trials and tribulations. 

There's been a LOT going on as I have been waiting for surgery. More ER visits for out of control pain, and am at the tail end of a two week battle of BAD sinus infection, double ear infection, and migraines because of those two things. My pre-op blood work showed elevated liver enzymes, so they want a repeat of the liver panel and a couple of other things before proceeding with surgery. I have been struggling for TEN months and I am going to be livid if my surgery has to be delayed. I don't think it will have to be, but it's absolutely crazy that my liver enzymes are elevated! I have never had that problem, even during my alcoholic days. Anyways, it's just unnerving after waiting so long to be fixed to have all of this last minute crap coming up. I've given it to God, have done what I can to bring those numbers down [ extra fluids, all bladder meds stopped, and absolutely no vitamin B ]. My vitamin B has been off the charts for a few months and that is the other part of what made my numbers shoot up they way they did. Tomorrow morning I go for my repeat labs and am expecting a good report so all can go as scheduled! Pulling on my faith big time here for normal blood work and no more hiccups. I will report on this issue tomorrow :) 

When bad things happen that upset you and you are discouraged, try to see and feel that life's difficulties and troubles are not intended to arrest your progress in your spiritual and daily life, but to test your strength and increase your determination to keep going. Whatever obstacle you are met with, you're either to overcome it or use it. Nothing should daunt you for long, nor should any difficulty entirely overcome or conquer you. God's strength will always be there, waiting for you to use it. Nothing can be too great to overcome, and when you get through those obstacles, use them to help others.....comfort those with the same comfort you yourself have received from God and from those around you. There can be no failure with God, and He will help you live a victorious life. 

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